A house is not a home…

A house is not a home…

A house is only a structure and a home is where you can say that there are people inside a house where you can always say you are being loved and cherished.
A house can have people inside, but you may feel that there are people alright but they don’t care for you.

We may have different trials in life, but the one place where I grew up and born at isn’t even my home…

At first I thought it was really a home, since this is the place where I grew up and all my childhood memories remains here in the walls here in our house…

Later did I know as I grew up and meet new people, whenever I got entertained to different houses to finish group projects we need to accomplish for us to be able to go unto the next step and even friends’ house who likes my company… later did I know, the real experience of having a home is not really in your own … hey we got different experiences ok? This is my experiences…I hope you can relate it and put yourself in my shoes…so moving on, some parents treated me like their own daughter, I was really happy and really felt that they love me. It was really priceless…

I guess, every person is really different... Even your own parents… even how parents treat their own children… I guess, great gaps of your siblings really differs from how parents treat their own children…

gee, my gap to my siblings is like 9years to -16years. And those guys only differ from about a 2 and a 3. It is really one of the factor that my siblings can speak up to my parents, and the difference is when I am speaking up my right and my thoughts, I am being wronged all the time... Like, give me the benefit of the doubt for Pete’s sake… It is hard living alone now with my mom who grew up in china who doesn’t practice democracy and freedom of speech… I just love Philippines… I didn’t say I hate china, but, like hello we children’s are suffering when your parents is old and grew up in a communist country. My dearest cousin usually tells me, “That’s how she grew up, from their time, they cannot speak their right to their parents… so she is doing these things to you what their parents had did to them… Surely your mom doesn’t even know how to accept feedbacks and she doesn’t understand what we have today in our society”. Look my dearest cousin is an immigrant from china, look how she thinks... totally different from the old generations… Sometimes, I just wish to tell my parents, can you just now criticize and compare me? I live in a different life from you guys and this is a new generation now… Can you not understand that?

Well whew, that’s life… it is so hard…
Experiencing painful sorrows in the house I am living in today…
God what is your purpose? Can You give me your wisdom on how I will have to deal with it everyday?

Thank you so much!
Thank you for the time reading this... :)

Yeah, I know it is hard to read something like this…
But I know somewhere out there, I am not alone :)

The Journal of an Injured person Part II: Giving tips from a Retired young Athlete

Sunday, July 25, 2010 at 4:26pm

Ever wonder how I stay in shape even though i'm not running anymore?

ofcourse who dont want to be in good shape and have a healthy body?

simple, we can even call it a diet...

here, base on the comments i gave and from my facebook status here is the link for my diet http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_does_water_do_to_your_body ^__^ IT IS A GOOD TO KNOW ^___^

and My diet part II http://www.ezilon.com/information/article_15730.shtml ^__^ This is how i do my diet, while i'm injured....

basically, even if i am not injured, I can still do this, but we must increase the amount of liquid that we need to drink regularly. read the article and see for yourself why water is a great investment for a healthy diet.

Not only does water fight dehydration, but it's awfully refreshing and has no calories.

I cant run anymore, but i hope i did a great help for those who aspires to run and those who want to stay fit.

after the healing process, i might join marathons, but i wont promise anymore that i can win... I dnt know if i can run the same again.
my muscles might have the strength to help me go further but my joins and the one supporting my legs cant do it. hehe...

If you like to run, or dream to run, START NOW

everyday is always a right time to start at something...

RUN LIKE THE WIND and Dont forget to smile and enjoy...

Running is a great investment for those who are stress.
When you feel stress, after running you will feel fulfillment and you will feel relax, and be able to sleep good after you finish some trainings.

after experiences a lot of trainings or running events, each day it seems that you have a high spirit in you that you don't intentionally do it when you still not committed yourself to run.

it's like a before and after...

ever wonder why i always got a high spirit everyday?

Maybe it's part of me, you can always say that, but some point of it the energy came from the trainings i got when i was still in training.

Drink Milk, eat bananas, drink plenty of water...
You can drink energy drink, but it has calories.. :))

Take Care guys! ^__^

The Journal of an Injured person Part I

What I can do today....

REST... according to the doctor...
REST so you will heal fast... Looks like you are stressed out and if you are so stress out you will feel greater pain compare if you are not. Next, you should take your medicine (which i dont... :)) i hate taking meds, id rather wait for my body to recover than depend on the medicine)

Study... because we have quiz on cisco 2....

we got 2 chapters in line

Rest.... because even though im at home resting, when i go up and eat then sit, OUCH!!!
Rest, when i sleep i cry for the pain to stop...

:((

My eximination for the XRAY gave us a good relief that there is no crack or malfunction, but the great idea here is that the skin that supports my tail bone doesnt hurt when pinch, push or touch...
it hurts when I move, bend and sit.
I sometimes get myself out balance and have my 2nd injury on the road by being unbalance out of my body.

well, this is what i am feeling right now...

and it is really painful...

i really am thankful that my friends are there to help me...

I love you guys!!!

I am thankful and happy that there still good citizens who cares for their countrymen... thank you all!!!

Thank you....

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A friend of mine told me that I can recover fast because i am still young,
but my friend told me that no more sports activity, i should stop and rest and do some things that interest me... i'd say, how bout a violin? (me in mind, yes i want it!!! I REALLY WANT TO LEARN!!!) then the chinese in me spoke (HELLOOOO are you rich??? can you buy it? :)) ofcourse not...)
then came to my mind and my dreams told me (HEY! you are saving for the DSLR right???)
then my conscience talked (OK, you should not think about it... you just go study.. :)) )

(boriiing... i like challenges hahaha.)
.... ok no more running... T___T



so it's a beautiful morning i guess...

GOODMORNING!!!

Let's eat breakfast...

(no food here, if you want to eat COOK!, so let's cook and eat then take a rest...)

(posted via facebook... on the same day)

Saturday, July 17, 2010 at 10:28am

(read for you to know the title)

A Journey…

It’s been a day…
I can hear the rain pouring…
Rain drops are dripping and thunders are soaring…
I’m a little bit scared…
I know I’m strong and you know I can handle myself, but I’m scared…
Do you hear my whisper? I’ve been calling you… I’ve been calling your name…
Mesmerizing in my deepest hour, picturing you in my wildest imagination
I have been calling you… Can you hear me?
Look! I have a lot to tell you, please don’t leave
Wait! I just need to tell you something.... really Important!
WAIT! Can you wait for me…
I don’t want to look back and be sorry for everything…
But please wait for me…
Take me to your journey…
I need to tell you something…
Something…
Really important…
I…
Will..
…Miss you.
If I can’t be with you, hope you remember my smiles and remember where you left me…
I’ll be here…
Waiting…
Thank you for your time talking to me…
I really appreciate it even though it is just for a little time…
I will be here where you left me and found me
Someday, we will be seeing again…
In the place where we first met
When you look back, you will be able to see me
Just call me, I can hear you… I will listen…
Up to the very end where I cannot hear you anymore
Or you cannot feel the silent whispers anymore

Atleast I met someone like you, in this kind of lifetime
Feel free to comeback…

I wish you all the great opportunities in life
But when you feel sad, feel free to come back…
I won’t leave…
I’m just here…
Wherever you are going for an adventure, you will have a great future ahead,
Just don’t forget that you have a friend
Whom you have talked to when you feel broken

And remember that once in a lifetime you have been …

…Talking to a Tree

Amusement Park

In an ordinary hot summer day, a man was walking, wondering what life is…
“Why am I here, what’s the reason for me being here...”
The question keeps repeating in his head, like a politician in a TV commercial trying to win votes...

Then his face began to sweat. He took a handkerchief and wiped his face...
after that, he saw an amusement park, and it seemed to be weird, because a few days ago
it wasn't even there... Out of curiosity he ran toward the main entrance, finding a way in.
He can see a lot of people around: Enjoying, walking, running, and maybe swimming. “I don’t know...” The man implied … “That’s what I’ve heard... I’m just writing about it.”

He became jealous, so he went to the ticket booth... He saw no one there.. "Now how can I get inside this wonderful place" he wondered. And when he almost gave up waiting, a small kid was eating ice cream beside him. It was a strawberry flavored ice cream. Then the kid asked the man, "why are you here outside the park?" Maybe the kid was wondering who this man is or why is the man wandering...

Wait let’s name the guy Tony, sounds weird calling him man after all this time… this is not a parable anyway, so Tony was wondering who is this kid, and he told the kid how he wants to get in the park, badly...
maybe he's just bored, sad or maybe he just wants to have fun...
after listening to Tony, the kid gave him a weird coin. the kid explained to him that this is a token for the park entrance and you just drop it in this slot.. blah blah so on and so forth...

Tony was excited. He asked the kid, “how can i repay you?” the kid answered "may twenty pesos ka ba dyan? pang Cornetto ko lang kuya." this is not a cornetto commercial...
so the tony gave the kid 20 pesos and ran off toward the main entrance. he tried to look back to thank the kid but the kid was gone.. oh well.. moving on..(oh by the way i don't know if the kid is a boy or girl. one thing I know is the kid is cute.. that's enough reason for me talk to them. :) )

So Tony got in the amusement park and he rode all the rides even the rides you think are for kids...
(Well the rules of the park is don't leave your kids unattended and don't scatter your trash and grown-ups and children can ride together...)

So Tony tried the ice cream.. the popcorn.. the pasta.. The sago’t gulaman.. The pizza.. and my Lapaz batchoy, and kinilaw, adobado "I add up the filipino foods" sorry.. as i was saying..
for one token, sulit diba? it’s not a credit card by the way.. :) it’s a token.. tookenn...

Then as the long day was ending, he felt tired and sleepy. Then Tony wanted to go home and rest.
As he outside to the exit, he saw an old man, in a white long-sleeves with a tie that has small ice-creams with different colors, and the old man ask Tony, "So how was your day? Did you enjoy the park?” Then Tony being friendly answered the old man how he felt, how much he enjoyed...

Tony asked the old man, “what about you sir, do you love the park?” The old man said, "I love to see people happy, even though deep inside their hearts are full of sadness and sorrow. I like to smile even if everyone is sad, even if I’m hurt, or angry, because I know life is fragile and short, and sometimes real life is no different from an amusement park, you get to meet different people, you get to taste different kinds of food. you may be afraid of other rides but some rides you enjoy very much. you get to see people with talents and sometimes you wonder if you can do that as well. It feels free to just do what you want, but sometimes you have to hold back, so that other people can enjoy as well. You see amazing things and sometimes you win something, and sometimes you lose, but once you get the hang of it you can move on. If someone goes before your line, you get angry, but if you see someone pretty you let them take your line, all the choices we make affects how our day will end."

And if you live long enough, you hallucinate more. Tony didn't get the old man's story (this old man is so emo), but honestly this old man looks familiar...
Tony said goodbye to the old man and thank him for the conversation. After Tony was about to leave, the old man said "So son have you found the true meaning of life?" Tony was shocked when he heard about this, and after turning around to the old man, he was gone, and so is the amusement park.

It was one hot afternoon and an ordinary day, and Tony was tired and sleepy...
Lesson: it’s quite simple, don’t accept tokens from kids with ice cream :) nahh
life for every person is unique, and special. if sometimes we don't understand its meaning, we can always ask someone old enough to explain it to us. in one simple prayer and a special book wherein we could always open up anytime. Life is like a token, when you were born it was given by someone else, and you should be happy about it, it doesn't belong to you, and so you should take good care of it. Enjoying free will and all the pleasures in life has a good side and bad side. like eating, if you eat too much, you will have stomach problems. And so, who is God? What is God? the boy and old man are just the same, like a man who loves ice cream, ever wonder where they come from? Or what made them? if you think deeply enough, you'll understand that God is everywhere.. Even in a hot ordinary morning in a walk searching for something…

By: Kenneth Doromal

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Editors:

Keohime and ZuPei

ECLIPSE

In the distant melody

Stars are twinkling in a distant sky

Far across the deep sea

I see you and me

Tonight, I watch the beautiful sky

I saw a new beginning in every path the star chooses a mighty black hole

It can be a challenge in the night

But there are new beginnings with them

Tormented in the frozen past

Stranded in a broken promise

There is no tomorrow when twilight and dawn fit together

While the sun and moon can’t be seen as one

For darkness will arise and fall,

And birth and death will cease

Shattered with the broken dreams of past and present

Bloomed with memories

For all the trees speak for its freedom as it peak

While shadow is not with you whenever you need it

Frozen by a broken past,

Tormented by an ease of tomorrow

Mislead by new beginnings,

With love and care aside

Frozen by a shattered dreams,

Tormented by the light of fade

Conquering in the light of darkness

With dreams that once to be a dream

When there was me and you

I prolong to stay

If it is not possible to be with you,

I might as well leave and say goodbye…

…and say thank you for all the memories

Happiness from the Last Minute

Happiness from the Last Minute

It is kind of sarcastic to think that some of the very happy things are those who are the state of the “Last Minute”, while people usually consider and partly doing their best of the best on the last minute…

Well on my case, I enjoyed every minute being with the person whom I love.

Happiness is really hard to explain, well base on my own experiences, it is being considered and most of the time hard to explain why we are happy because of the emotions we sometimes can’t understand for the fact that it is because we sometimes get happy out of surprises and stuff that we don’t consider as expectations.

Happiness is a very nice feeling and just one tip if you’re happy today:

1. 1. Make all possible things happen

2. 2.Don’t think of the time, enjoy all the things that are happening now, because life is short

3. 3. Some of the events like this are once in a blue moon, so make out of use some of the circumstances like this

4. 4.Embrace yourself, relax and enjoy

5. 5.And the last, LAUGH!!! It’s freeeee!~

So come on, BE HAPPY, SMILE or LAUGH until your stomach aches (it helps.. seriously.. especially it is really an antioxidant…. Errr.. seriously! =)) )

BE HAPPY

SMILE

LAUGH

Life is short!

Why settle for anything else if you have it right now…

Be happy even if it is the last minute…

Life is short, it may not come again so enjoy every moment being happy and being you!!!

THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR READING!!!

NOTE:

Why start later if you can do it now?! ^__^

Regards,

A Smile From a Shadow

Hey…

Are you awake?

I’m sorry if it was so sudden…

You know what, I really enjoy your company… hehe, and it’s very hard for me to say and to tell you how much I appreciate you whenever we are together. You know the feeling of happiness whenever we are together and when you laugh, haha it feels like I am in a different place where I don’t have many problems. Hahaha. You know whenever we are together; I always feel the want in touching your hands together while we are walking. Well, it’s fine as long as we are together and you can’t blame me for hallucinating in the air while we are walking together. Thinking of touching your hands even though it is only the shadow. Well atleast my shadow gets to touch you, I am very contented with it.

You know…

You make my day alive whenever I see you, especially when you smile. You make My Day so bright that I can’t even see the darkness.

But, it’s not always like that right? Sometimes, you get so lonely that I wish I can make you smile. Sometimes I act like a fool so crazy just to make you laugh, but it didn’t work, and it got worst.

I am very lonely whenever I see sadness in your face… I want to touch you and hug you and tell you how much you mean to me…

You know what…

I am here, whenever you need someone to talk to, I will always be here to listen and be here for you no matter what it sacrifice it takes.

Even if I am not the person whom you like to talk to, I will be here for you.

I…

Appreciate everything you do for me and will always be contented even if it is the only thing or the limit you can do for me. I understand.

Love…

Is the feeling of strong positive emotion of regard and affection according to the dictionary. It may be one of the reason why I i'm always happy when you are with me.

Whenever you smile back at me or whenever I see you smile, it makes me feel worry-free even if it is just temporary. And, it may sound so selfish but I wish it can last for a lifetime.

You…

Are my reasons why my day is so bright and you are my reason to be alive and stay happy.

Are my reasons why I need to live in this world. But I am sorry if sometimes you get a little annoyed whenever you are with me and your day had gotten worst because of me, because of my childishness. I am sorry if I always or had become so depended. It may seem like you don’t know what I really feel. Whenever you feel like I’m dependent, well I am not. But I am just enjoying every seconds being with you, for it might not last long.

Are my only reason to smile whenever there is a greater pain in my heart from this cruel world. Seeing you is my strength and my vitamin. Thank you for everything…

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I have a lot of things to say, but this is what I really want to tell you no matter how hard it is for me to say because some words just can’t really explain how much you mean to me in my life.

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I love my every moment with you…

Hope you remember me and hope you feel the same even if it is just for friends…

Take care always…

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Thank you for listening to me whenever I feel blue and red…

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Sometimes it is like a dream for me to be with you and see you everyday…

Hehe but, I didn’t know you wouldn’t like it. I sometimes feel that maybe just maybe, I am a only a friend to you.

Hey, I’m sorry if I act crazy or like a clown just to make you smile… hehehe, cant you see I am childish whenever I am with you. But if not, I am very matured on how I deal with people.

Hehehe, seems like you don’t understand that I sometimes get childish whenever the person is close to me at heart and mind.

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Thank your reading this, and hope you feel the same…

~~~~~

…. My Friend.

Love,

Atheia

My Schedule for April

note: for all weekdays will be occupied for my practicum/OJT.

whew.. ^__^ I hope I find a OJT as soon as possible.

When I feel like dying

When I feel like dying

There are many circumstances and measures in life that can be a reason for me to quit especially when there are things that you wish and what you wish you didn’t get. Many had happen in my life when there are some challenges at first I didn’t expect I will surpass it and pass the test that had given me. Sometimes, I would think about God and all about Him… and be the reason of asking “God? What are you thinking today?” and may find the best answer to just look over the bible and point it out of nowhere while I close my eyes.

There are many things in life that sometimes every single person in this world experience the things that needs to be done has been accomplish then later that person will ask “Is it over?”, “Am I ready to die?” , “Will I be dying now?” or “Will I still be here later?” then that person will think again and might say “some thoughts huh?!” and then that person will be very depress later…

Then I asked myself, “Do I have a problem?”… “Some thoughts huh?!”

Then I realize…”WAIT! My problem is that I don’t have a problem???”, “Come to think of it… it is a big problem?!”

Then, one day, a friend of mine told me sometimes it is best not to think, not to have something to do, not to have those problems, not to have so many things to do… not to have so many things to finish… Sometimes, a person needs to rest and find rest BIGTIME in the present world and not in the imaginary world called DAYDREAMING or the other side of the world called HEAVEN.

There’s no such thing as PEACE if you don’t find it yourself!

There’s no such thing as REST if you can’t do it yourself!

And there is no such thing as PROBLEM if you don’t MAKE THE PROBLEM OUT OF IT…

Sometimes in this kind of world, we humans must know how to deal with our present life, deal with the problems behind it and come to think of a solution… if there is no such thing as we called “Solution or Answer” then simply MARK X and DON’T ANSWER it because half on the go or by solving it without any solution you just wasted half a way of your time BIGTIME!

But…

Yes, you may learn something... BUT HELLO! You should have thought about it?!

In this kind of world, sometimes in this part of my life I think about my purpose and what should I do next… When I feel like dying… is just an empty crap of thing of a thought…

Mesmerizing in the deep shallow room with any discomfort of what’s going on and what is really happening in this world…

Sometimes, people can always ask right?

But… is there really a right answer in every question?

Or is there really a solution in every problem?

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The feeling of wanting to die… is so damn difficult to explain!!!

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Is this because I am tired of life and I am tired waiting for things or happenings that I realize it can never be given to me. Or it is just something that even time can’t choose me. For a person who is very ambitious with full of dreams rejection and failure is very hard to swallow compare to pride.

-Cassiopeia

March 24, 2010

University of Santo Tomas ... FINAL EXAM SCHEDULES.. Information Technology

PLEASE CLICK THE IMAGE TO SEE THE PICTURE IN FULL SIZE. THANK YOU :)

FIRST YEAR

SECOND YEAR

THIRD YEAR

March Schedule

sorry for the delay....

To My Beloved Gelatone ^_^

Friends are your main source of joy whenever you feel alone

Gelato is a piece of sweet where you can smile after you eat it

When Friends and Gelato combined, you can find a miraculous feeling of joy . . .

Gelatone with my friends, my thesis mates and my brothers in school

Patrick- Hey Keo would you like to go Makati; we will have our OJT-hunt today with Mike.

Keo- I would like to go but I simply can’t go because I am really depress. And i don’t have that much money left,

I would have to use the money to pay for my tuition fee.

Patrick- It's alright, Mike can handle it.. Right Mike? errr.. Mike?? Mike??? OH NO HE RAN?!!!!

Keo-hahaha silly...ok ok fine fine i will go if and only if you and mike will approve my big favor.

Patrick- errr... ok??? What is it?

Keo- There are two place in Makati where I really wanted to go...

Patrick-where is that?

Keo-one is in 6750, in Microsoft and their balcony (4th floor) and at Greenbelt, Gelatone, my favorite ice cream restaurant... I miss the staffs there and their Gelato.

Patrick- alright got it.... and, you usually go in Gelato even if you came from UST right?

Keo- yes, i usually go there whenever i feel stressed and i would like to have a smile on my face. after all it is my favorite restaurant and i love Ice creams.

Patrick- alright, after we finish everything we will take you there, and for the money we will lend you and we might as well share the goodness of the famous Gelato you keep telling us about.

Keo-Thank you very much.... You don’t know how happy I am to hear that from you. :)

In our thesis group, we are a team, we usually say we are the three musketeers, the family that eats together stays together.. haha.. Remembering it makes me smile after all it is not permanent to be always have a happy day…

I'd like to feature our picture, taken at Gelatone, Greenbelt Makati City.

I would like to thank my friends/thesis mates for granting my one big favor in eating here in my favorite Gelato Restaurant, GELATONE! No words can ever express how I love the Gelato here especially the People and the Customers. ^_^ THANK YOU! :)

to my thesis mates, I LOVE YOU ALL! This makes my day a better happier day compare to my last visit here in Gelatone...
because i usually eat alone to cheer me up but it gotten me a greater smile when my friends grant my wish to eat here. thank you everyone!!!

"Friendship is the sweetest flavor of Gelato you can ever taste in your life..."

Gelatone has been a great part of my life….

Whenever I feel like thinking and or rather just be with myself, I usually go here at Gelatone…

The staffs where great, great services, great friends and great family!

I usually get the hang of talking to them especially when I am alone and kind of a bit lonely, they cheered me up and I feel like being home.

I usually remember whenever I am in the conference and it makes me a little sleep, I usually dream of going back to the same place where I have loved to eat Gelato here in the Philippines. Then later on, yuriikaa, GELATONE! XD

I am very happy whenever I go to Gelatone, everyone is friendly in Gelatone, especially the boss’ here, their great like THUMBS UP!!! THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR KEEPING ME WARM in GELATONE! MWAH!!!!

I will be visiting soon when I got a free time…

-Keohime

There's no word how we enjoy our Gelato with Gelatone...

Just by looking with the pictures, you'll see how happy we are, and Happiness cannot be measured with anything, you can always find it together with your friends and with your favorite Gelato. :)

Until our Next VISIT. See you guys soon! :)

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My heart for you will never die…

Every time I wake up in the morning, I begin to think of you if you are alright there, in your comfy bed cuddling the stuff toy every morning that I gave you a few months ago. Oh how it really fills my heart to think of you smiling every morning! Yes, the very thought of you makes me want to love you so much that the winds just gracefully blows within our surroundings and embrace us with the warm touch of the sun. It is a simple yet everlasting feeling which bounds us together and never apart no matter how many miles away we may be.

Never will I forget the days when I gave my love to you. It emits a feeling that surpasses the ends of time and makes our hearts beat faster. The rhythm that comes with every beating of our hearts creates a harmonious tune that surrounds us both and keeps us bounded together. A melody is then created which bedazzles everyone that we pass by. Together, we walked through the highest mountains and the deepest seas. Crossed the dangerous valleys and the soft clouds for I promised to love you more than anyone else; until the ends of time. No. there will be no end for my love to you.

I will hug you tight. As tight as it seems but is as warm as a burned candle that brightens your heart. It will shine and brighten up further to the ends of your darkness and fill it with warmth. Its comfort will sweep all your sadness away and bring happiness to your world. I will give you my gift of sincerity, my love, my comfort, my loyalty, my all. It will never break no matter how difficult the road is. My heart will never pick anyone else except you. And if I ask the same question to my heart, it will just spell you name out loud for the world to hear how much I love you so.

Even at sleep, we will still be together for I will always be your guardian angel when you sleep. I will cuddle you tight, hug you lovingly until the bitter winds that surround us will disappear and will turn to the warm grace of my love. I will keep you close to my dreams and love you till the very end. I do not have control of my heart anymore….It is all yours.

You are my Life, My Love, and My Everything.

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-Computer Wiz Kid

copyright © 2010

ALAY

You can call me “goro” in short, a graduate of San Beda College had finish taking the course of International Business and Entrepreneurial Management.

I am a type of person that would risk everything to get what he wants no matter how hard or difficult it may be. Cooking with different kinds of dishes would be my past time besides reading and analyzing business concepts. I have retired from sports because of unstable left knee but I use to play basketball, volleyball, badminton and even try American flag football.

When it comes to love life I haven’t found the right person yet or maybe the perfect person did come, but because of my immatureness and lack of logical thinking, the person left me.

It all started when I ask my classmate to give me someone to talk to so he did give me a girl from his list in his yahoo messenger. When I first saw her avatar, my world just stop from revolving it seems like I saw a goddess from heaven so I quickly add her and introduce myself.

At first she ignored me showing me that she’s not interested talking with me so I have no choice but to accept that.

Until one day she has given me her time and had a chance to chat me. That night, my feelings jump start and I was very happy. Then the communication was there then I proposed to her that I would court her, but the only mistake here was, I do still have a Filipina girlfriend, in short “nagtataksil ako” (I am cheating). For me I am willing to leave my girlfriend for her because I can feel that this new one is the right girl that I am looking for after a long time.

At first I didn’t tell her about that but she is very “matalas” (keen) on what she does. Because later I know she had checked my Friendster account and she found it out for herself so that that I have an existing girlfriend and that night I was explaining my side but I know that her trust gone down.

I’ve tried to win her heart and win her trust again and what I did was to maintain the communication everyday that I didn’t notice that I am already eating so much of her time. I was so “makitid” that I didn’t realized that I only think about myself it short “self centered”.

“Nagsisi ako ngayon” (I am ashamed) because through her I learn how to improve myself on how to improve my attitude and how to deal with people the proper way for that I want to say thank you very much for all the things you made me understand.

I just want you to know that you’re the happiest memories that happen in my life besides finishing my studies on time.

I hope that there would come a time that you could give me a chance again to prove that I am the right guy for you, but until then I am always here for you no matter what happen “lagi mo ko maaasahan” (you can always count on me) and “hindi ka na magdadalawang salita pag kaya ko” (I wont make any kind of second doubts and words as long as I can do it).

Through this I can pay back all the stupid things that I have brought you, my only wish is that you can give me a chance to know your little problem … I want you to share your pain.

My only prayer is that you can finish on time and also you can manage all the challenges that you would encounter as the time goes by.

Take Care, God Bless and Stay Beautiful

-GORO-

February 28, 2010

Posted on March 1.

When You are Worth Alive Part II

A short story

It all starts when Cherry realize that she needs a father at the age of 4 in her nursery.

She always looks at other children who had their parents to pick them up.

And then, by looking intimately and closely she didn’t realize that she was being called…

“Ms. Cherry…”

“Ms. Cherry …”

“Miss!”

Then Cherry answered quickly upon noticing that she has been called “ Oh, I’m sorry, I didn’t notice you . . . Jillian.” Then Jillian answered, “I’m sorry miss, but we are going home…” “oh alright… we’d better be going home”

By that time, Cherry is always mesmerizing on having a father…

“Jillian?” Cherry says. Then Jillian answered “Yes?”

Cherry answered with a hurry, “Do you know the feeling of, uhmm, like being a kid who had her horseback ride at her daddy’s shoulder?” then Jillian answered it quickly with a shock, “Yes, my father use to do that to me when I am little. Why’d you ask all of the sudden Miss?” then cherry replied “It just made me think of what it feels to be like the children I usually see when it is going home time.” Jillian answered “You miss your father huh?” then Cherry answered with a lonely tone “Yes, I never had something experience like that…”

At night…

“Jillian?” Cherry called, “Are you sleeping?”

Jillian answered “Just half a sleep, what it is Miss and you called up at this time?”

Cherry then answered, “Can I share you something if you don’t mind? It just concerns with the one we are talking about a while ago.”

Jillian, “hmm.. sure, I guess I have all the time to rest for tomorrow, after all it’s Saturday”

Cherry, “alright then”

It all started when my Mama, brothers and my sister told me a story about how great my father was even though he is up right there in heaven.

Did you know that, the reason why my father died is because he is trying to save our lives from the Muslims who invaded our home and took all the money we have when I was one year old… and the reason my father died is because he is trying his best to protect, save and defend what we have, our family. I never thought I was going to tell a story about this but, it is what I always wanted to share and I can’t hold on just by seeing those kids who is playing with their dad, with their whole family.

I feel incomplete… But hey, my mother, my brothers and my sister is trying their best to complete me and standing there to be the father I usually need for me to grow.

Years and years had passed…

And Cherry had successfully graduated High school.. but during graduation . . .

“Looking at the distant sky, feeling the cold wind upon the heights of the highest mountain…”

“Papa, I will always remember you. . . Here in me, with all my heart and soul… I will always Love you.”

I remembered…

Carlisle (big brother), Christly (Sister) and Christian (2nd brother) told me that when I was little, my father would buy me anything that is best for me like a toy or new dress or new stuff. It was like them saying that, hey Cherry your pretty lucky because Dad favors u so much.

Then my mother will say “Your Dad use to hold you so tight, and never let go. Whenever he is at work and he has his hands dirty, he usually uses his shirt to wipe all the dirt away for him to carry you”

Christian always telling me that whenever our dad saw him throwing me in the air, he usually get all the scold and my big brother usually gets the hard discipline by the stick made of wood for not taking care of me and not watching Christian throwing their little sister in the air. And then, our father grabs me and took me away from them… for keep sake and keeping me safe…

So that’s basically it, even though you aren’t with me today in my graduation at least Mama is here for me, with all my effort being paid with all the best award i could ever received in my life is the love of the people around me..

Especially God…

END.

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Cherry – Protagonist

Jillian – Maid

Papa you will always be here in my heart... forever...