Wednesday, March 24, 2010
When I feel like dying
There are many circumstances and measures in life that can be a reason for me to quit especially when there are things that you wish and what you wish you didn’t get. Many had happen in my life when there are some challenges at first I didn’t expect I will surpass it and pass the test that had given me. Sometimes, I would think about God and all about Him… and be the reason of asking “God? What are you thinking today?” and may find the best answer to just look over the bible and point it out of nowhere while I close my eyes.
There are many things in life that sometimes every single person in this world experience the things that needs to be done has been accomplish then later that person will ask “Is it over?”, “Am I ready to die?” , “Will I be dying now?” or “Will I still be here later?” then that person will think again and might say “some thoughts huh?!” and then that person will be very depress later…
Then I asked myself, “Do I have a problem?”… “Some thoughts huh?!”
Then I realize…”WAIT! My problem is that I don’t have a problem???”, “Come to think of it… it is a big problem?!”
Then, one day, a friend of mine told me sometimes it is best not to think, not to have something to do, not to have those problems, not to have so many things to do… not to have so many things to finish… Sometimes, a person needs to rest and find rest BIGTIME in the present world and not in the imaginary world called DAYDREAMING or the other side of the world called HEAVEN.
There’s no such thing as PEACE if you don’t find it yourself!
There’s no such thing as REST if you can’t do it yourself!
And there is no such thing as PROBLEM if you don’t MAKE THE PROBLEM OUT OF IT…
Sometimes in this kind of world, we humans must know how to deal with our present life, deal with the problems behind it and come to think of a solution… if there is no such thing as we called “Solution or Answer” then simply MARK X and DON’T ANSWER it because half on the go or by solving it without any solution you just wasted half a way of your time BIGTIME!
But…
Yes, you may learn something... BUT HELLO! You should have thought about it?!
In this kind of world, sometimes in this part of my life I think about my purpose and what should I do next… When I feel like dying… is just an empty crap of thing of a thought…
Mesmerizing in the deep shallow room with any discomfort of what’s going on and what is really happening in this world…
Sometimes, people can always ask right?
But… is there really a right answer in every question?
Or is there really a solution in every problem?
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The feeling of wanting to die… is so damn difficult to explain!!!
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Is this because I am tired of life and I am tired waiting for things or happenings that I realize it can never be given to me. Or it is just something that even time can’t choose me. For a person who is very ambitious with full of dreams rejection and failure is very hard to swallow compare to pride.
-Cassiopeia
March 24, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
Thursday, March 11, 2010
Friends are your main source of joy whenever you feel alone
Gelato is a piece of sweet where you can smile after you eat it
When Friends and Gelato combined, you can find a miraculous feeling of joy . . .
Gelatone with my friends, my thesis mates and my brothers in school
Patrick- Hey Keo would you like to go Makati; we will have our OJT-hunt today with Mike.
Keo- I would like to go but I simply can’t go because I am really depress. And i don’t have that much money left,
I would have to use the money to pay for my tuition fee.
Patrick- It's alright, Mike can handle it.. Right Mike? errr.. Mike?? Mike??? OH NO HE RAN?!!!!
Keo-hahaha silly...ok ok fine fine i will go if and only if you and mike will approve my big favor.
Patrick- errr... ok??? What is it?
Keo- There are two place in Makati where I really wanted to go...
Patrick-where is that?
Keo-one is in 6750, in Microsoft and their balcony (4th floor) and at Greenbelt, Gelatone, my favorite ice cream restaurant... I miss the staffs there and their Gelato.
Patrick- alright got it.... and, you usually go in Gelato even if you came from UST right?
Keo- yes, i usually go there whenever i feel stressed and i would like to have a smile on my face. after all it is my favorite restaurant and i love Ice creams.
Patrick- alright, after we finish everything we will take you there, and for the money we will lend you and we might as well share the goodness of the famous Gelato you keep telling us about.
Keo-Thank you very much.... You don’t know how happy I am to hear that from you. :)
In our thesis group, we are a team, we usually say we are the three musketeers, the family that eats together stays together.. haha.. Remembering it makes me smile after all it is not permanent to be always have a happy day…
I'd like to feature our picture, taken at Gelatone, Greenbelt Makati City.
I would like to thank my friends/thesis mates for granting my one big favor in eating here in my favorite Gelato Restaurant, GELATONE! No words can ever express how I love the Gelato here especially the People and the Customers. ^_^ THANK YOU! :)
to my thesis mates, I LOVE YOU ALL! This makes my day a better happier day compare to my last visit here in Gelatone...
because i usually eat alone to cheer me up but it gotten me a greater smile when my friends grant my wish to eat here. thank you everyone!!!
"Friendship is the sweetest flavor of Gelato you can ever taste in your life..."
Gelatone has been a great part of my life….
Whenever I feel like thinking and or rather just be with myself, I usually go here at Gelatone…
The staffs where great, great services, great friends and great family!
I usually get the hang of talking to them especially when I am alone and kind of a bit lonely, they cheered me up and I feel like being home.
I usually remember whenever I am in the conference and it makes me a little sleep, I usually dream of going back to the same place where I have loved to eat Gelato here in the Philippines. Then later on, yuriikaa, GELATONE! XD
I am very happy whenever I go to Gelatone, everyone is friendly in Gelatone, especially the boss’ here, their great like THUMBS UP!!! THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR KEEPING ME WARM in GELATONE! MWAH!!!!
I will be visiting soon when I got a free time…
-Keohime
Just by looking with the pictures, you'll see how happy we are, and Happiness cannot be measured with anything, you can always find it together with your friends and with your favorite Gelato. :)
Until our Next VISIT. See you guys soon! :)
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
My heart for you will never die…
Every time I wake up in the morning, I begin to think of you if you are alright there, in your comfy bed cuddling the stuff toy every morning that I gave you a few months ago. Oh how it really fills my heart to think of you smiling every morning! Yes, the very thought of you makes me want to love you so much that the winds just gracefully blows within our surroundings and embrace us with the warm touch of the sun. It is a simple yet everlasting feeling which bounds us together and never apart no matter how many miles away we may be.
Never will I forget the days when I gave my love to you. It emits a feeling that surpasses the ends of time and makes our hearts beat faster. The rhythm that comes with every beating of our hearts creates a harmonious tune that surrounds us both and keeps us bounded together. A melody is then created which bedazzles everyone that we pass by. Together, we walked through the highest mountains and the deepest seas. Crossed the dangerous valleys and the soft clouds for I promised to love you more than anyone else; until the ends of time. No. there will be no end for my love to you.
I will hug you tight. As tight as it seems but is as warm as a burned candle that brightens your heart. It will shine and brighten up further to the ends of your darkness and fill it with warmth. Its comfort will sweep all your sadness away and bring happiness to your world. I will give you my gift of sincerity, my love, my comfort, my loyalty, my all. It will never break no matter how difficult the road is. My heart will never pick anyone else except you. And if I ask the same question to my heart, it will just spell you name out loud for the world to hear how much I love you so.
Even at sleep, we will still be together for I will always be your guardian angel when you sleep. I will cuddle you tight, hug you lovingly until the bitter winds that surround us will disappear and will turn to the warm grace of my love. I will keep you close to my dreams and love you till the very end. I do not have control of my heart anymore….It is all yours.
You are my Life, My Love, and My Everything.
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-Computer Wiz Kid
copyright © 2010
Sunday, February 28, 2010
You can call me “goro” in short, a graduate of San Beda College had finish taking the course of International Business and Entrepreneurial Management.
I am a type of person that would risk everything to get what he wants no matter how hard or difficult it may be. Cooking with different kinds of dishes would be my past time besides reading and analyzing business concepts. I have retired from sports because of unstable left knee but I use to play basketball, volleyball, badminton and even try American flag football.
When it comes to love life I haven’t found the right person yet or maybe the perfect person did come, but because of my immatureness and lack of logical thinking, the person left me.
It all started when I ask my classmate to give me someone to talk to so he did give me a girl from his list in his yahoo messenger. When I first saw her avatar, my world just stop from revolving it seems like I saw a goddess from heaven so I quickly add her and introduce myself.
At first she ignored me showing me that she’s not interested talking with me so I have no choice but to accept that.
Until one day she has given me her time and had a chance to chat me. That night, my feelings jump start and I was very happy. Then the communication was there then I proposed to her that I would court her, but the only mistake here was, I do still have a Filipina girlfriend, in short “nagtataksil ako” (I am cheating). For me I am willing to leave my girlfriend for her because I can feel that this new one is the right girl that I am looking for after a long time.
At first I didn’t tell her about that but she is very “matalas” (keen) on what she does. Because later I know she had checked my Friendster account and she found it out for herself so that that I have an existing girlfriend and that night I was explaining my side but I know that her trust gone down.
I’ve tried to win her heart and win her trust again and what I did was to maintain the communication everyday that I didn’t notice that I am already eating so much of her time. I was so “makitid” that I didn’t realized that I only think about myself it short “self centered”.
“Nagsisi ako ngayon” (I am ashamed) because through her I learn how to improve myself on how to improve my attitude and how to deal with people the proper way for that I want to say thank you very much for all the things you made me understand.
I just want you to know that you’re the happiest memories that happen in my life besides finishing my studies on time.
I hope that there would come a time that you could give me a chance again to prove that I am the right guy for you, but until then I am always here for you no matter what happen “lagi mo ko maaasahan” (you can always count on me) and “hindi ka na magdadalawang salita pag kaya ko” (I wont make any kind of second doubts and words as long as I can do it).
Through this I can pay back all the stupid things that I have brought you, my only wish is that you can give me a chance to know your little problem … I want you to share your pain.
My only prayer is that you can finish on time and also you can manage all the challenges that you would encounter as the time goes by.
Take Care, God Bless and Stay Beautiful
-GORO-
February 28, 2010
Posted on March 1.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
A short story
It all starts when Cherry realize that she needs a father at the age of 4 in her nursery.
She always looks at other children who had their parents to pick them up.
And then, by looking intimately and closely she didn’t realize that she was being called…
“Ms. Cherry…”
“Ms. Cherry …”
“Miss!”
Then Cherry answered quickly upon noticing that she has been called “ Oh, I’m sorry, I didn’t notice you . . . Jillian.” Then Jillian answered, “I’m sorry miss, but we are going home…” “oh alright… we’d better be going home”
By that time, Cherry is always mesmerizing on having a father…
“Jillian?” Cherry says. Then Jillian answered “Yes?”
Cherry answered with a hurry, “Do you know the feeling of, uhmm, like being a kid who had her horseback ride at her daddy’s shoulder?” then Jillian answered it quickly with a shock, “Yes, my father use to do that to me when I am little. Why’d you ask all of the sudden Miss?” then cherry replied “It just made me think of what it feels to be like the children I usually see when it is going home time.” Jillian answered “You miss your father huh?” then Cherry answered with a lonely tone “Yes, I never had something experience like that…”
At night…
“Jillian?” Cherry called, “Are you sleeping?”
Jillian answered “Just half a sleep, what it is Miss and you called up at this time?”
Cherry then answered, “Can I share you something if you don’t mind? It just concerns with the one we are talking about a while ago.”
Jillian, “hmm.. sure, I guess I have all the time to rest for tomorrow, after all it’s Saturday”
Cherry, “alright then”
It all started when my Mama, brothers and my sister told me a story about how great my father was even though he is up right there in heaven.
Did you know that, the reason why my father died is because he is trying to save our lives from the Muslims who invaded our home and took all the money we have when I was one year old… and the reason my father died is because he is trying his best to protect, save and defend what we have, our family. I never thought I was going to tell a story about this but, it is what I always wanted to share and I can’t hold on just by seeing those kids who is playing with their dad, with their whole family.
I feel incomplete… But hey, my mother, my brothers and my sister is trying their best to complete me and standing there to be the father I usually need for me to grow.
Years and years had passed…
And Cherry had successfully graduated High school.. but during graduation . . .
“Looking at the distant sky, feeling the cold wind upon the heights of the highest mountain…”
“Papa, I will always remember you. . . Here in me, with all my heart and soul… I will always Love you.”
I remembered…
Carlisle (big brother), Christly (Sister) and Christian (2nd brother) told me that when I was little, my father would buy me anything that is best for me like a toy or new dress or new stuff. It was like them saying that, hey Cherry your pretty lucky because Dad favors u so much.
Then my mother will say “Your Dad use to hold you so tight, and never let go. Whenever he is at work and he has his hands dirty, he usually uses his shirt to wipe all the dirt away for him to carry you”
Christian always telling me that whenever our dad saw him throwing me in the air, he usually get all the scold and my big brother usually gets the hard discipline by the stick made of wood for not taking care of me and not watching Christian throwing their little sister in the air. And then, our father grabs me and took me away from them… for keep sake and keeping me safe…
So that’s basically it, even though you aren’t with me today in my graduation at least Mama is here for me, with all my effort being paid with all the best award i could ever received in my life is the love of the people around me..
Especially God…
END.
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Cherry – Protagonist
Jillian – Maid
Papa you will always be here in my heart... forever...
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