YOU

When there are times when you feel you’re alone

When there are times when you feel your reason to stay

When there you are roaming along the side of the river

Thinking if there is such thing as we called end

There are a lot of things that needs to be done

There is a lot of reason for it to be done

Yet we find ourselves not finishing the task

For some reason, we find ourselves thinking

Thinking…

Not thinking about what the next plan for the work

But thinking about something that bugs us within the day

For one reason, we must keep going

Why?

Why? Is that a question? Ok... it is…

We must keep going because there are a lot of things that we can use of the time we use in just thinking

Thinking…

May not be the best solution.. but it helps…

One of the reasons why we think long is because what we feel inside

Some of the reason why we think long it’s because of trauma, fear or judgment

But listen to this my friend, you may find yourself thinking outside outer space

But believe me you’ll just end up wasting your time thinking and thinking over and over again…

Thinking can be a good plan at first, but thinking for too long isn’t good anymore

Thinking may be good, but think fast… what matters most is what we do in action not just by dreaming out as if there is no tomorrow or like having the problem like there is no tomorrow

There is… God made “tomorrow” so that if we lose today, we can have a chance to prove ourselves tomorrow and fight once again

But, please consider that expecting there is goodness in tomorrow isn’t the right way to deal in what you are thinking today…

Why?

Yes, you got it right... You thought it right.

See the bigger picture now? What matters most is what you did best, what YOU DID, what you have put action to it, what you consider it done and the like.

What matters most is that you are being you…

What matters most is that you are true to your heart, true to yourself and you are true to Him.

What matters most is what you did best…

What matters most is what you and your soul are happy about

What matters most is what you believe…

Believe what you can do.

Believe that you can do it

Believe that, in every problem there’s an equal solution and answer

Else, void and don’t answer

Simple?

Then, How can you put yourself in that kind of situation?

If it’s not

Who says life is easy or simple?

You just have to be your best… after all no one comes out of this world… alive.

Be your best, be yourself, and be true to yourself

EVERYTHING HAS A PURPOSE...

EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON...

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Note: written on February 8, 2010

When You Are Worth Alive Part III

When you are worth Alive

Part III

Do you love someone?

Ever thought of letting that person go?

Ever thought of letting the person go, because you really love that person?

And because you love that person you want to let him/her go to see that person happy?

Have you ever consider dying or living?

What do you consider most?

If you choose to die rather than live,

What will be the possibilities that you should have live than die?

Well…

In this world, there were many problems that are inevitable.

(Yet, I might say, you are not alone)

Some might have the answer and some might not have.

When you love, you became selfish or selfless…

When you love unselfishly you give and give and give,

And you think of yourself less.

Repentance might understood in the end of the line,

But have you thought of fighting when you still have the chance?

Have you thought of believing that when you love someone,

It is possible to make the impossible possible?

Yeah,but…

Yeah, but…

What?!!!

When you have the chances grab it while you can!

Do you know how far between two people when they turned their backs to each other?

You need to travel around the world just to meet with that person again.

Do you know that when you miss the chance to fix your relationship you might not have a second chance?

Since on the other side might think you have given up?

Grab the chance while you can.

In a relationship, it is always a two way part not a one way…

In love, it is normal to have problems and conflicts…

Be thankful in a way, because this is part of the formula to make you and your partner stronger and as well as your relationship.

Be thankful in a way, for because of conflicts you understand and knew each other more.

And since a relationship is a two way part, you won’t be alone solving it

If and only if you LOVE each other.

Don’t waste time… That person might be waiting for you…

Make up your mind!

If you are seriously love this person, BE BRAVE AND FIGHT!

Yeah,but…

Again?

Never were more fatal words spoken.

Yeah, but… what about me?

Yeah, but... what about money?

Yeah, but… what about… Yeah… but…

DAMN! MAKE UP YOUR MIND ALREADY!

If you are seriously serious about your relationship

FIGHT!

You know what,

“Yeah, but…” is pernicious. Because it makes it sound like we have the best of intentions when really we are just too scared to do what we should.

It allows us to be cowards, while sounding noble.

If you can’t make up your mind,

Follow your heart’s desires.

Follow what will make you happy…

Have you thought of leaving? Will leaving make you happy? Will it solve anything?

Will it make you alive?

Life is all about love…

Love is so powerful that it can even turn the impossible possible!

Mother Teresa said, "It's not what you do, but how much love you put into it that matters."

BELIEVE!!!

You are not alone!

YOU ARE NOT ALONE!

At least you know, You aren’t in this journey alone…

Are you happy with the one you love?

Then what are you waiting for?

Do not let go of the things that you cannot see other people are holding…

If you let go, don’t tell me you just needed a break…

Coz, if you love someone you will fight, believe and understand.

That goes on the other side…

People might be matured or immature,

Some people might want the answer they want to hear…

I think immature people just haven’t grown up to the same level you have grown right now…

Give them time and a chance… they are doing their best.

You are once like them, understand…

Forgive…

Ok…. Don’t give me another “YEAH, BUT…”

Make up your mind or you will lose the one that makes you happy…

Believe…

Anything is possible if you love, believe/hope and remain the faith…

What more if you do it together…

Don’t lose hope…

IF there’s a will there’s a way!

“It's not what you do, but how much love you put into it that matters.” –Mother Theresa

“If you can dream it, you can do it!”

–Walt Disney

"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.”

-Matthew 7:7

"If you think you can do it, or you think you can't do it, You are right.”

-Henry Ford

No matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I’m bankrupt without love. 1Cor.13:3b

Only you can decide… You have a choice…

What’s holding you back?

Priceless

Whenever you are too faraway

I always remember what we have and smile

These precious memories

Those priceless smiles

Those simple little things that made us laugh

Are so precious to me and make me realize I'm smiling and laughing...

Together, my life shines so bright

That I never thought my darkest night

Would light so bright

That I could never ask for more

Since when I met you

You completed my incompleteness...

Here in my Life...

Life without you is so meaningless...

Without you there will never be me...

You are my energy....

My Vitamins...

And my whole being...

You are my world...

You completed me...

I will breathe for you each day...

I will listen to you everyday...

I will always understand you in all the way...

I will be with you in your entire journey...

I will be the one who will love you forever...

I will always remember that there will be someone like You

Who completed me in my everything and

Completed me in my imperfections...

To me, you are the one and

To me, you will always have a place in my heart!

You so precious

You are so unique

You are so lovely

You are one of a kind...

To me,

You are my everything...

I will always understand you...

Because I know I am the only person who can understand you...

I am your other half...

I am proud to say that!

And I will always be proud...

Because I HAVE YOU!

AND I LOVE YOU SO!

I will always take care of you!

I want you to know that you mean so much to me!

You are important to me!

I appreciate everything big or small...

To me, everything is so precious...

YOU ARE SO PRECIOUS TO ME!

You know what,

What I appreciate most is your time...

Thank you!

Because, that is the most precious gift you could ever give...

To me...

I LOVE YOU!

Whenever things had gone rocky,

You’re always here…

How I appreciate it so much...

Wanna know why?

Because, knowing that you’re there for me it makes me smile!

Knowing you’re here with me makes HAPPY!

THANK YOU!!!

Please let me say THANK YOU SO MUCH!

I APPRECIATE IT SO MUCH!

THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART!

In every battle, remember always that you are not alone...

WE CAN DO IT!

TOGETHER WE CAN!

WE HAVE GOD ON OUR SIDE!!!

HE IS WITH US!

TOGETHER WE CAN!

Nothing is impossible as long as we believe!

Believe that we can do it!!!

IM ALWAYS HERE!!!

REMEMBER THAT!

I WILL BE WITH YOU IN YOUR ENTIRE JOURNEY!

Don't be sad...

I am with you...

Whenever you get sad and feel alone,

Close your eyes and feel your heart...

I am here with you!

I LOVE YOU!

The sound of Home

I closed my eyes

And listened

There was a sound

The sound that makes me always happy…

And it is very familiar to me…

I listened closely and confirmed the sound

Then I heard YOU…

The person whom I really love…

The sweet voice,

The voice of the most important person in my life…

The sound of home…

That when I hear and listen to it,

I feel wherever I am I feel love…

I feel warmth…

I feel so secure…

It’s like you are here by my side…

And I know,

I will be seeing you again soon…

Soon

Very soon

Wait for me I’ll be back

I closed my eyes and listened again…

I FOUND YOU…

…here in my heart

I LOVE YOU!

A Diary to The End

A Diary to The End

July 21, 2011

Dear Diary,

Roses are red… violets are blue… why did I smell flowers here in the hospital room?

Cold as ice and rhythms are sounds… Why do I feel like someone is calling me?

Then I opened my eyes slowly… I saw… YOU…

I wondered why you are here, then I asked you the question then you told me because I am here.

The fragrance and smell of the flowers are true proof that I am not dreaming and I am still alive and be able to see you again…

I asked and wondered why, and you told me again, “I am here because you are here… I will stay by your side from now on…”

You added, “I am so stupid of not knowing that you are always here with me, whenever I needed you.. I almost forgot all the things we had together, our memories, our laughter together and our… Love…”

I cried in tears not because I was sad or dramatic… But I was so happy that you finally realize my worth…

And…

As I listened to you, I check all the surroundings and I saw my mom, my dad and my sister’s look while you were talking… there’s something different… And as I look into my mother’s eyes, I have a hunch that you already know the reality that was happening to me.

That my brain tumor is killing me slowly…The reality that supposed not to be told to you…

You know what, I was really really happy today… But, It seems that you know it already that I got One Month left to live…

As you talk… I held your hand and suddenly tears fall into my eyes as I say, “Jeron, everything will be alright Ok? Smile! Everything will be ok... Everything will be alright! Smile!” then, you shed a tear and hug me… I was so shocked and couldn’t resist myself not to hug you back… then you told me… “I love you Cleo, please don’t leave… You have to live… You have to live!” And I smiled back and say “Let God’s will be done” then you just hugged me tight as if I was about to die and as if it were the last…

But… the joy didn’t last after 5mins; someone rushed and knocks at the door.

Jane came and rushes in to you with so much breathe intake, and I realize you are sweating all along, and is it because you rushed all the way here after you found out that I got my last chemotherapy awhile ago? And you came rushing here while you are with Jane…

Its ok Jeron, I really wish you and Jane will be happy now…

I have forgiven you and Jane.. So Smile Ok? :)

Jeron, Thank you so much!!! THANK YOU THANK YOU! I am very happy because you told me that you love me for one last time… My heart hurts, because I am very jealous when I see both of you, but I am quite happy at the same time since I know there will be a girl who will be with you, take care of you from the day I will leave and join my creator. I have forgiven you… Thank you for staying with me today… Our God have answered my prayers!!! I’m SO HAPPY!

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July 28, 2011

I was really shock the moment I opened my eyes and you were the first person I saw this morning…

My sister told me everything last night…

She told me, the moment I collapsed after my daily walk yesterday morning I was brought to the emergency room and she called you as soon as she was told by the doctor that I got less than a month to live. And it happened so fast that the doctor had thought that I supposed to live with minimum of 3months to a maximum of a year and if God is willing, he can spare my life if I am willing to go to America to have a brain surgery from the latest technology created… But the doctor told my sister if I decided to go on the procedure, I only got 15% chance to live since my brain tumor had already scattered and I really need a miracle to live. I just remembered why I told them I don’t want to go to America…

My only reason is that…

… I do not wish to forget you.

I will fight to my very last breath; I will fight ‘till I can still remember you… How much I love you… How much I can do… to remember you… You are my vitamin, my strength and my hope… Please don’t take away my precious memories remaining with you… I couldn’t spare… I don’t care if I die, as long as I will remember you ‘till the very last! I wish I could live more and be able to be with you as long and remember you… But, you know, you got your own path now… There is no more sense for me to be around. I just want you to be happy… so I smiled at you and told you again this morning, “SMILE, Everything will be alright!” and you smiled and told me, “I will” then you kissed my forehead.

But then, I asked you why Jane isn’t around and you told me you had broken up with her yesterday, because you realized how important I was to you and you could't bare to see me getting hurt; that you suddenly remembered all the precious memories we have in the past… the whole 3 years we have been together up to this date. And then with my heart’s content as I took a deep breath I say, "THANK YOU! (You still remembered…)" with a smile!

Quote: “Time is free, but it’s priceless. You can’t own it, but you can use it. You can’t keep it, but you can spend it. Once you’ve lost it you can never get it back. -Harvey MacKay”

“You need to take care of yourself from now on… You must live your life to the fullest… Smile because you have all the time to be happy! Don’t waste it!”

~~~~Time and days had passed… you were with me…

Know what? It’s been 2 weeks already, And I am very happy to see you everyday! From the moment I close my eyes, to the very first sunshine that kissed my cheek and as I opened my eyes to see you!

You took care of me together with my family, you help me walk each and everyday, I am so happy!

But…

(Sorry, I felt a little bit dizzy.. I should stop writing now… maybe I’ll continue writing later...)

:) SMILE!

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Dear God,

My Sister collapsed and was rushed to the emergency room and as we know it is already too late…

I will give this diary to Jeron since my sister really put an effort to finish this diary up to her very last…

God, do you hear me? Do you listen to me now? Please take care of my sister. I am really scared…

My mom fainted to the very last drop she cried when she saw Cleo collapsed… God, I don’t know what to say or what to write. I don’t have much left to say and energy to write, but I know you always understand and you are always here for us and especially for Cleo. God, Let your will be done…

From now on, you do what you have to do with my precious little sister Cleo. Save her… and if not, take her with you for I know she will always be happy with you…

Father, thank you because you granted her last wish to see him and stayed for her to the moment she loses her breath…

And we will always remember her last words to the moment she is catching her breath to the very last stand she have: “Smile, God is Here and always be…”

God? THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING! WE LOVE YOU!

Please take care of Cleo for us…

My letter ends here...

-Catherine

Letter To My Love Part II

If leaving you is for the better

If leaving you will make you happy

If leaving you will... make you as a person...

Then, I will say my goodbye now... and thank you for everything..

Thank you for all the time..

even though it is for an hour or two...

I am contented...

Because, I can atleast see you before I leave...

This maybe my last letter to you...

I hope you are doing fine...

I know you are happy,

let it be...

I'm happy for you are happy...

Though my presence wont be as good as the presence of hers

I still wanted to say I hope I made you happy even if it is a second or two.

I wont be there with you any longer,

but I will always be with you...

Whenever you miss the old me,

just look into this letter and remember all the happy thought...

I wont expect that you will do that, but listen to me, coz I will do it for me to remember you...

There's a few time left, I hope you are happy.

As long as you are happy, healthy and Okay, I will be fine...

Whenever you need me, talk to God and maybe He might send me again in your life...

Thank you for everything...

Atleast, I get to see you smiling before I leave...

Your smile is my energy... my vitamins...

Thank you because you make me alive.

I will be leaving now...

Im very sorry if I can't tell you directly,

I dont want to kill your joy as of the moment,

because I always want you to be happy.

By the way, I want to thank you for

reading up to this space, I really appreciate all your time...

This makes me happy,

even if you dont see me...

This makes me happy because you spent the time to read my letter...

I hope you always find your way to happiness...

May God be with you always...

With all your dreams,

the road may be rocky at times,

but everything will be alright!

FIGHT!

YOU CAN MAKE IT!

YOU CAN DO IT!

I wont make this letter long...

I wish you pure happiness and joy in life...

Be happy now that you find your partner in life...

Thank you for staying with me again, even if it is a short while...

I Miss You... and will be missing you... here in my heart...

Until we meet again...

I love you... and always be...

-Cleo

Letter To My Love

3months to go...

Bouquet of red roses, warm hug, smack of kiss and a stare of love

Being with you is a work of art, a master piece of divine intervention, a gift that cannot be measured nor replace of any kind of lucre

Memories dash like a speed of light, feeling it like a dash of hope, rejoicing as we glance to the day we met to the very last day we ever met

Today is the count for freedom, the freedom I usually wish and asking with a question of "will i ever see you again?"

Starlight, starbright here now, this is all what i am wishing... just as said in a title one must move forward and fight

Wishing that it is never too late to shift for I didn’t ask for any gift just be yourself and give your best for He will do the rest

Believe that everything will be alright like the hope you see in every twilight... wishing o' wishing upon the star make no difference for who you are

All the time that has left and gone there are more stars yet to come. Don’t lose hope for it will be ok, you will be ok

I might not be there for you anymore but I will be with you along your fight

There’s no much time left, i hope everything will be ok. Hoping you'll grow and understand that life is meaningful with God and love around

Everything will be ok; now that i see you....I can go...

I know all the truths and the lie even your happiness to be with the one you really love...

I am nothing but a fool, but hey, I’m a fool who really loves you most... That even i go to hell, just to be with you I'll do it...

And If God would give me chance, I would say, "Father, take him instead of me"... "For he deserves to be with you..." "Save him, as You wanted To save me...I will be ok, because I have you even if I stay here in hell"... I would go through hell to save you and to lift you for you to be saved.

I accepted the truth and the lie for the freedom you and I deserve...

Hey Mister, I forgive you... in everything that you do even if it takes my life just to see you smile and be happy...

People might come and go, but i hope that once in your lifetime you found a true person in me that you never saw to the person who is not me.

I am not perfect, I am only human... A sinner who sin, a human who makes mistake...

I may not be the happiness you always find and always seek...

But i hope that sometime in your life, you have found a friend in me.

You know what,

Whenever i see you i get so excited, it trembles deep within my soul...

The excitement I usually have when I received a gift in Christmas...

Truly, it is one of a kind and it feels like Christmas when i see you and being with you that made me feel like God made today and making it

Christmas all the time, and making you as His present to me...But i was too spoiled, that God took you away and returned you back to the place you once belong. I never imagined how selfish I am to take you away from them…but believe me it wasn’t my intention.

Being with you and giving me your time is the most precious gift i could ever receive...

How Thankful I am being with you...

I hope that someday, you will use your time wisely...

I know, it’s been really tough huh, that we lost our spirit together when we are together...

I understand….

Trials had come and challenges were bestowed upon us...

But, one thing is for sure, God never left us alone in this battlefield...

I use to believe that we are on one army together, but I guess you knew it first that I am not the person who fits for you...

Like there is always someone there for you... always by your side...

I might not be the chosen one to protect you...

But I will always be with you...

Wherever you are, wherever you go... I will be here...

I may not say that I am always at your side, but given a chance and seek to it, i think I am.

I am not saying that there is wrong with that, but we should always be aware for the person who is always with us, for they are treasures...

We can never see it alone, but feeling it has gone deep morethan through its words as you can explain.

I’m all grown up now...

Thank you for everything...

If we ever meet again...

.... i hope your still the same person I knew...

IF we meet again,

You will tell me stories like you use to do...

As I listen to your great stories and battles in the field,

As I imagine how you are great in the battlefield...

Because great or not, I will always see you as who you are...

How great you are as a person and as a child of God.

As we find our purpose in our life...

Someday we will understand more what we have today…

Until we meet again...

Until we meet again…

SMILE ALWAYS! FOR EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT!

EVERYTHING WILL BE OK!

YOU CAN DO IT!

YOU CAN MAKE IT!

I am not be very good in words,

But i hope you feel it here...

Here in my heart...

For once in my lifetime... I will say, that me in my simplest ways...

I LOVE YOU!